I was abused....
and I was
I hid in
cowered in the shadows,
suffered in silence.
I protected the secrets of those
who raped me,
and used me.
My name is Rick, and I have created this
site to declare my innocence, honor the heroic struggle of
my childhood, and continue my healing journey.
Others seeking to
further their own healing by declaring their innocence are
welcome to submit their stories. Every survivor deserved to
be heard, and to experience the hope of healing.
A Little Bit
About My Past:
I was sexually abused by
an older cousin and others on repeated occasions from the time I
was 11 until I was 19. The pain began then, but continued expand
and reveal itself in many different ways:
- Low Self-Esteem
- Self Hatred
- Shattering of my faith in God
- Sexual Addiction
- Gambling Addiction
- Constant fear of people, places and
- Loss of Sexual Identity
- Pain of possibly never having my own
Healing these effects in
my life today are why I made this page. While I do not believe
that the sexual abuse caused every single pain in my life- I do
believe it affected every part of my life, and
did influence many of my decisions. Understanding the role the
abuse played in my life allows my to continue healing these
A Little Bit About My
I have already made
- I have been sober since March 13th,
- I have learned
to love the child I was, and am starting like the person
- I am in a relationship with a beautiful
woman, and am engaged to be married.
I have reduced the
frequency and intensity of self-injury.
- I am more
angry at him, and less angry at the world.
I am beginning to
define a relationship with a God of my understanding.
My hopes for the future:
I am determined to keep
moving forward- owning my own mistakes, truly seeing the
innocent child I was.
I do not know where my healing will take me. But
I am committed to the journey. I will move forward, one step at